haven't updated for quite a long time.. coz i was back in time ya??? hmmmms.... too far from the time now.....

un-noticed..

feel worser den ever...

maybe i got immuned......

i saw this in his msn..

" when will i have a peaceful life?"

so i asked earlier on why do u have to put this kind of message... is ur life very disrupted??

so he told me for nothing only.. and refuses to reply already.

wadever la...

my life had became so soft and queit.. no longer BOOMBOOMBOOMZ

It never gets worser to be any more upset..

yesterdat.. i was kinda rude to my husband..

and he was pissed all the way till the night..

until when he was gonna sleep i started again with my talking.. coz i think we reallie need to talk.. but he refuses.. he said when he dun talk means he dun wanna quarrel.. and was very very pissed... i know at times i'm rude and attitude.. but when i try to talk nicely i also get this kind of thing.. so i said.. u got problems u dun talk it out with ur wife.. u will only have a heart to heart talk with other people. so he  said i cannot compare everything like how he treat other people to me.. he is just like that... cannot help it... i want i just TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT

I WAS SO PISSED... went downsatirs. hmms.. and he never even wanna look for me. and said why i lock him in my house...... Hai.. my mum ask whether i reallie wanted a divorce.. i dun want to.. but it's reallie killing me..

I sense... that something is not right.

it's worser than ever.

n i have that type of feeling again,, which is always accurate... that he is looking at girl profiles and msging some alr.

I dun feel good. but i cannot find any solution at all.

I need a shoulder to lean on...

Somehow,, i feel our relationship has come to nowhere...

I don't feel any care nor concern from him anymore...

if i'm back at my mum's place for how long... we would not even talk for how long...

when me and zayd are back home... he simply just does his stuff,, not helping out,, and going out with his sis at night...

shouldn't it be like a person would wanna stay home tgt with his 'family' to create bonds

he doesnt think this way...

he just thinks that i'm always unhappy when he goes out with his sis,, with what he does... and only nags at him...

 our 1 year anniversary is coming,, but i just feel that it's a joke. becoz he dun even look forward to it.

i feel worser than ever..

If i can choose. i rather we get seperated.

Hmm,, quite a couple of pics wanna upload,, but ain't got any idea where is my usb cable...

hmmmm......